Good morning, it has been too long since I have written! Life happens, I get caught up in the here and now and I forget to take the time to process it on paper (so to speak). My counselor keeps encouraging me to sit down and write a book but I don’t think I am disciplined enough to do that yet. Not with all the other things going on in our world for sure, but this blog, I want to make it a priority because when I write, God speaks!
When Jesus was hanging out with his disciples one day, one of them asked Him to teach them to pray. Gratefully it was recorded for us to have a template from which to pray to God, because without that I don’t know that I would ever say the words I titled this blog post above, Not My Will, But Yours! Yesterday Hubby was distant and we’ve been “distant” for too long now and I am ready for us to reconnect. I’ve lived with him so long that I know how his mind works, If we are shopping for a car, his thought life is wrapped up in that and if it’s a house we need, there won’t be one that he doesn’t see, at least online. We’ve looked at 20 houses and none of them are exactly what we are looking for AND we haven’t sold our house yet so we aren’t really even in the market. We did put an offer in on a house and time elapsed without a response from the seller because he ended up at the hospital the same day, so we still are without a house. During the waiting period, Hubby said he didn’t know how I could NOT be stressed since there is so much to do IF they take the offer and IF they don’t then we start all over. I told him that for me, it is clear, it’s not my will that needs to be done, it is His.
God always has our best interests at heart. That is a true statement whether we agree or not. He knows what tomorrow is going to bring so He knows what we need today to be ready for tomorrow. We cannot begin to think like He thinks because we don’t have all of the story. I don’t understand why my body didn’t hold up for me and I’ve been sick so much as an adult, but I know that I wouldn’t change it because I wouldn’t be the person I am today had I not gone through all of that. Since God always has my best interest at heart, then I may really like the house that we made an offer on, but it may not be best for me to have it. I gave it to God and said, “Your will be done in this God, not mine.”, and my job is to trust. If I give the outcome to Jesus, I know the outcome will be the BEST. If I make things happen because it’s what I really want, the outcome will not be near as good.
I choose to not stress, I didn’t used to believe it was a choice, but because His will is so much better than mine and because Jesus thinks bigger than me, the outcome will be better than my imagination. I truly believe that. I know that God loves me and that I am His daughter, what good thing would He withhold from me if it wasn’t the best thing for me? His Word says that if non-believers could give good gifts to their children, how much more would our Father in Heaven give to us whom He calls His children. Getting that Truth rooted deep into my subconscious has been a journey all it’s own and I don’t believe it all the time myself, but that does not make it less true.
This morning as I was spending time with Jesus He asked me to take a Scripture a day, for this season, and meditate on it all day. I do that sporadically but I believe He was asking me to make this a discipline in this season of my life. I trust that it will be fruit filled season with Daddy as I am rooted deeper in who He is and who I am in Him. I encourage you to spend time with Him daily, God is the only reason we are here today and He is the source of all that is good. Have a blessed day!
“Our Father in heaven, may your name be kept holy. May your kingdoms come soon. May your will be done on earth, as it is in heaven. Give us today the food we need, and forgive us our sins, as we have forgiven those who sin against us. And don’t let us yield to temptation, but rescue us from the evil one.” Matthew 6:9-13