My Heart’s Devotion

“And I will give them a singleness of heart and put a new spirit within them. I will take away their stony, stubborn heart and give them a tender, responsive heart,” Ezekiel 11:19

This morning as I climbed into the shower, my heart leaped because I know when I enter there it’s time to be with Daddy. It has been such a busy season and sometimes I feel so empty when I don’t have a good amount of time to talk with and hear from the Lord. Hubby and I went all weekend again, it was our quarterly work weekend and this time our entire team at the office were joining us. We couldn’t really back out of it so we kept going, at least Hubby kept going. I got a weekend in between to rest and boy did I need it.

Today was such a special time with Jesus, He always knows exactly how to fill me up. What’s so exciting about our time is that I never have a clue what He is going to bring me. This morning, He had me focus on how He made me. I had a dream night before last. I rarely remember dreams, but I have been asking Him to give me remembrance. This season for His children, He is pouring out gifting and I want to be a part of all He is offering. So, I ask for His gifts and guess what? It’s actually coming to fruition because I remembered my dream! My mom came to visit me!! In the 11 years since she went to heaven, I’ve only dreamt about her a few times. I always wanted more, but it just didn’t happen. In the dream, she and I lived in different places, it seemed like she was still in Tulsa and I was here, just as it was. I didn’t sense that I knew she was coming that particular night and there were several people wherever we were. Someone had let her and “my surprise” in, she had someone with her on this visit that I wouldn’t ever expect, must less with her. She brought a childhood friend from Muskogee, OK with her, it was so interesting. All I really recall is that my mom and this friend were sitting on a couch when someone notified me that my mom was here and then I woke up.

I don’t really know what that dream is fully about. I do believe that over time, talking with God about it, I will come to understand more. That being said, I decided to reach out to this friend whom I hadn’t talked with in 35 years. I know that may sound crazy to some people, but I believe that is the way God made me, and I love it. Maybe I should have been surprised when she filled me in on the chaos of her life right now but honestly, I wasn’t. God knew and He gave me her face so that I would begin to pray for her. The only thing I recall about our friendship is that I invited her to  Falls Creek Baptist Bible Camp one summer when we were in Junior High and she came to know that Lord that week. So, not only are we friends, but we are also sisters in Christ. I hate that she is in such a rough season but maybe me reaching out will help her to keep her eye on Jesus in the storm, who knows. What I do know is that I get the privilege of praying for her and encouraging her and that is a blessing to me.

I get to choose what to do with my heart and the gifting that God has given me. His word tells us that He gives us more the more we use what He gives us well, stewarding our gifts well and pointing others to His promises. I get to choose the devotion of my heart and I am grateful to get to serve Jesus as He served me, laying down his life. I do hope that I continue to grow and do more for the Kingdom but this is enough if it’s all I ever receive. My heart’s devotion is to Him, in Him, and through Him. Thank you Jesus.