I am super excited about my next trip coming up. I know that I may be a glutton for punishment, but I am headed to a place called Restoring the Soul. Based on the name, that is their goal for the people who come there. It is in the mountains of Colorado, the most beautiful state I’ve ever seen and I am ready to be there! Restoring the Soul offers one and two week intensive counseling sessions. We meet with our counselor for about three hours a day and then they send you off with assignments to prepare for the next day. I heard about it on a podcast I listen to called “Typology” and it sounds amazing.
Full health and wholeness has been my goal for many years now. I want to love others well and leave them better than I found them and the only way I know to make that happen more consistently is to find my own healing with Jesus. To say I am not nervous would be lie. I know that I will be encouraged to look at my childhood and sit in the pain of it and that is really scary. I have done some of that work over the years, but never to this degree. I know that God wants to heal those places, I know He wants to use my story to help others find His healing as well. As a child in our home you were to be seen and not heard, actually if you could avoid both of those it was better. Hubby described my childhood to someone years ago, it was the first time I’d heard him speak what he saw. He told him that I was made to sit down, shut up, and behave. (He followed that up with this, “my wife was not created for that!”) It was an instance when some women were trying to do the same thing to me and in that experience I heard the enemy’s lies rather than the truth and it caused me to sit down, shut up, and behave for another season. I’m ready for those seasons to end.
God gave me incredible gifts and I haven’t used them as I wish I would have. I love words and encouraging others with words, it’s my passion. I long to share more of Jesus with women all over the world through written words and speaking/teaching. I want to give all of who I am to Christ and let Him use me for His glory through my story. I know that all I’ve gone through will speak to a lot of other women out there who have always felt less than. I want to share with them that whatever lies the enemy has been feeding them, they don’t have to believe. I know that my enemy has been trying to steal, kill, and destroy (Jn 10:10) this area of my life. He has tried to steal God’s words and love through me. I’m done! I don’t have to believe who my dad says I am because my Daddy says I am valued, worthy, and loved. He created me for this time and I am going to fulfill my purpose, Restoring the Soul is the launching pad for direction.
When I started the journey of healing years ago, it looked overwhelming. I didn’t have it in me to even begin the healing process until then because it was so overwhelming. I started with simply giving God my first fruits of time, the beginning of my day, 10 minutes max. Through that commitment I made to myself and to God, He has done incredible things. I feel closer to my dreams than ever and I have hardly begun. This blog is a major part of my dreams, sharing Jesus with all who read. I have watched Hubby grow and prayers I’ve prayed for him be answered. If Jesus can do that in our home, He can do it in anyone’s. Satan better get very afraid because God has big plans and He is not going to stop. Daddy God loves me. He says I am special. He says I am chosen. He says I am His own. He says I am His child. He says I am accepted. He says I am made in His image. He says I am a Royal Priesthood. What He says is the truth and that truth is what I want branded on my heart.
Thank you to everyone who reads my blog. I am not yet a professional writer but God somehow got me to earn a degree in Journalism in college, I think that was the start. Now here I am 27 years later fulfilling what He called me to long ago. I pray that I offer God’s love and through my transparency you will find His love for you too.
“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.” Ephesians 2:10 NLT