Good morning! It is a really beautiful morning, I got to sit out back and enjoy the weather for a bit this morning, it felt so nice. I look at the clock and it isn’t even 9 am yet and my emotions have been all over the place. Do you ever have those mornings when, as you are thinking of several different things, your emotions travel with your thoughts? It used to be awful, I really didn’t know what peace looked like until a few years ago. I am still healing from the ablations I had done and when I’m healing I find it harder to turn that off.
I find myself falling into old patterns of eating when I am hurting an extra amount and that is not helpful for my goal of healing and living a healthy life. I am a huge travel nut, in case you hadn’t figured it out from reading my blog. If I don’t feel good, travel isn’t nearly as fun or fulfilling. Jesus told us that He came to give us life to the full and I am holding Him to His promise! I know that I have to eat well and workout, do my part, but I still believe if He said He will do it, He will. The “eat well” part isn’t very easy for me. This morning as I came back into the house I started thinking about breakfast. Gratefully, Hubby found me a protein shake that doesn’t hurt my stomach, tastes pretty good, and offers nutrients that I need to start my day and metabolism. To the protein shake I add vegetable anti-oxidants, bovine colostrum for immune strength, and Ambrotose (something my mom introduced me to about 20 years ago and a friend brought back around recently). That takes care of breakfast for me, I don’t like to eat in the morning and so this starts my metabolism and can be thrown together in 3 minutes. The problem is, there’s the rest of the day and that’s what I started thinking about next.
Recently I had a blood test run that tells me what foods that I have a sensitivity to, these foods cause excess inflammation in my body and what follows that is pain. The ND told me that if I could strictly avoid these foods, and anything that is crap (basically), for six months my body would reset itself and I would be able to have the foods again. She said if I wasn’t as strict it would take about nine months. I wanted to ask her how long it takes if it takes you a year to figure out how to eat like that at all? Really. I eat like an American kid most of the time. If you show me a menu, my eyes go to the pizza NOT the salad. I had gotten myself to the place that I started going to the salads and choosing them, then my GI doc told me I shouldn’t be eating salads or any raw vegetables because of stomach issues I have. Literally, I worked on becoming a salad eater for over two years and now when I look at a menu I have no idea what to order! Everything I eat seems to be bad for me and I have no idea how to cook veggies to my liking because I don’t like a lot of them cooked. All of these questions about what I would eat today came flooding in my mind as I walked into the kitchen for my protein shake.
I’m really struggling. I want to be healthy, I want to eat right, I want to live life to the full but I have no clue how to make that happen. I told Hubby if he would plan out the menu, every meal, and put it on my plate, I would eat it. That is a big step for a woman that has a food problem (It’s in my head and we haven’t figured out how to overcome it but by doing, so let’s do!) and like I said, my eyes naturally go to pizza! We will get this figured out but it sure is frustrating in the meantime. Hubby is sick, not real sick but has infection, so he is on antibiotics and not feeling a 100% and I am still recovering so our choices haven’t been great. Starting today, we have to choose life with our food choices so I am getting meat out to thaw and I will cook tonight.
God, please give me Your desires, Your will, when it comes to my food choices today. Just today God because one day at a time is all I can take. Thank you for walking with me and choosing with me today Father, show me Your choices for me. Thank You in advance, I love You.
“So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.”
1 Corinthians 10:31
“Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing to it; I will heal my people and will let them enjoy abundant peace and security.”