Oh my goodness, school is starting for me today and I am nervous. I was studying this morning and last night and I am not sure if I am going to be able to do this! My professor sent me an email letting me know there would be a quiz the first day of class so I have been studying for it and I am realizing how long it has been since I was in school.
I took the practice quiz in the accompanying workbook for our text book and I hate to say that I made a 72. A 72! I have to make a B to even be allowed to stay in this program and I didn’t start out so great. When I was reading the questions, they are so wordy that it feels as if they are trying to trip me up so I don’t follow my first instinct and we all know that is a bad idea! On several questions I had to guess because I was so confused by the question itself, had I guessed wrong I wouldn’t have a 72, my guessing skills happened to work this time. Wow, I really had no idea this would be so tough for me.
When I began reading the two chapters, it seemed as if it would all come back. I took this class when I was 28 and made a B in it. Even if it would have transferred, I would still need to take this class again because apparently I am not recalling information as I used to in my 20’s. There is SO much information in just these two chapters that I don’t know how I will get it implanted in my brain. I am realizing it will take a lot more effort than I put in when I was in college the first time! Am I ready for this? I feel like a kindergartener going in with no previous education and a lot of these kids I will be attending with have just gotten out of college. They are ready for all this info, that’s probably what a lot of them have been studying the last two years so this is all a refresher. For me, it’s really brand new.
I am reminding myself of the promise that God has given me, one that I wear on my wrist most days, and that is this…
“I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength” Phil 4:13
It is really tough to believe that I can do this now that it is here. I had so much excitement when I made the decision to go back to school but today that enthusiasm is waned with fear that I won’t be able to complete it. Hubby reminded me again last night that I have the mind of Christ. I say that a lot but always welcome the reminder because I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I do have the mind of Christ. The Holy Spirit resides in me and therefore it is true because the Bible says that it is true.
“For who has know the mind and purposes of the Lord, so as to instruct Him? But we have the mind of Christ (to be guided by His thoughts and purposes).” 1 Corinthians 2:16 (AMP)
His Word tells us that we have no means to instruct Him but we do have the mind of Christ. I am clinging to that promise this morning. I know that God has led me back to school because the desire has been there for a really long time. When I decided to go back, I had been in prayer over it for a couple of years. This is the time. This is the day. God will be with me guiding me, training me, and preparing me for what He has in store for my future and I am so grateful that I do not have to do this alone. Thank you Father that you are with me and that You never leave. God bless!