We had such an incredible time at our Grand Opening last Friday! It was a party and I always love a great party. Before the party though, it was a lot of work. Worth every bit of it. This weekend I was tired, all weekend. I went to the after hours clinic on Wednesday evening thinking I had a bladder infection. I’ve had so many in my life that my symptoms are different and I continue life through them. The clinic told me that infection wasn’t showing up but that they would do a culture. Sunday morning in church the nurse from the clinic called to let me know there was infection and she was calling in my prescription. Hubby and I both knew I had one, we know my body and when I have headaches I have an infection. Not to mention other symptoms that I will keep to myself.
I get concerned about how much I am able to do. I can’t do nearly as much as I used to and that is frustrating. Coming into mid-life is not fun. My proper mother, who rarely said anything that shouldn’t come out of a ladies mouth, would say, “Chandra Ann, getting old sucks!”. I typically would laugh because it was so out of character for her. She was right, getting older does suck. I’m devoted to eating healthier and working out, but I know there was no “guarantee for life” given on my shoulders. I also know that I’ve done a lot of damage to myself with choices and though habits improve, the damage is done. That brings me to my conversation with Jesus this morning.
I am feeling so much better today that I spent extra time with Him this morning. I am so grateful I did. Spending time in the presence of Jesus is so healing. I pray everyone finds it. My days always start in the Bible. I have established that if I don’t put truth in, first thing, my day can be stolen from Him. The Bible is the only real truth there is, putting it in my brain before MY brain (and the enemy) takes over is just smart. I think the Bible calls it wisdom. I struggle when I go through bouts of illness, and I talk with Jesus about it consistently. I’ve asked for physical healing more than anything else I’ve prayed for I bet. Though it has manifested in many ways, I’m nowhere near 100%. Every time I am down it steals from my life, Hubby’s life, and sometimes it still steals from our kids like this past Sunday when we went on a date with them and I was still sick. They are so gracious about it because I have been sickly most of their lives, they have compassion for me and others. That came from the story, but the cost for compassion was great.
This morning, after I danced before the Lord and God comforted my heart, He took me to a beautiful scripture that gave my heart life…
“Now don’t worry about a thing, my daughter, I will do what is necessary, for everyone in town knows you are a virtuous woman.” Ruth 3:11
I don’t know about virtuous, I want to do further research about that word in the original Hebrew. That was my first thought. Then Jesus beautifully showed me a picture of the love, honor, commitment, and devotion to Hubby and our children I’ve had. In the passage it talks about loyalty, virtuousness could be just that, our loyalty to one another and to loving the other well. That picture says that this verse was meant for me. I know my heart skipped a beat when I read it! He highlighted it just for me today! I am His daughter and I know that He loves me. I know that His will for me is to be well, and sometimes it’s a process. But through each battle I get stronger in Him and in how much He loves me. The revelation of that love is what heals us, down to our cellular memory, and He is doing that. He is more protective and concerned about me and my health than I could ever be, I find some sense of peace in knowing that. Rest, He says.
Spend time in the Bible today, it’ll be the best medicine you can take, guaranteed. I know that God will highlight exactly what your heart needs to hear and know about His love for you. God bless!